summers greaaat!

ive mostly been out, or either just staying home and eating.

=]

so let me tell you about my past week

did i talk about thursday? i dont remember, oh well. ill tell u ne ways

so thursday, allison came to visit after school, and then we went to the park to surprise bonnie and shirley a goodbye party, it was fun. and i got to play on the swings !

friday, joesephs bbq. oh god.. i was soaking wet. uhh from the water fight. ahaha. i got fucking hit in the face with a water balloon.. and sniff. it hurt like a bitch. and all the guys could do was laugh at me! jerks. ahaha . its all good.. i got revenge, muahaha. so yeahhhh we just chilled, ate, watched the boys play football, played leap frog in the grass, lol. played on the swings again. and went home

saturday, kates pool party, Ooo..hot guys with no shirts. =). some people got too wasted.. AHEM. so we just basically chilled and swam, i kept going back and forth from the big pool to the hot tub, cause it kept getting too cold and too hot. hm.. afterwards, we all went to kates house. and stayed for about an hour, cause kates parents started to get mad, and kicked us out... so eilene slept over that night and me , eilene, and allison stayed up till like 3am talking about whether life revolved around choice or fate. hmm...............lol.

sunday, allison left.. =(.stayed home, cleaned my room, took a 2 hour nap.

monday, trams party, we swam at her "clean" pool.. ahaha. stayed there for like 2 hours, then everyone went back to her house, and chilled there. um we watched the movie identity, and everyone was having fun scaring me while i was watching the movie..yeah..very funny guys, sniff. hmm and i took the bus home with vinh and his brother

tuesday, um...? uhh i forgot what i did tuesday...lgksdghsdfg either i went somewhere but i forgot, or i just stayed home.

wednesday, oh boy. vites, nims, and johns party. ahahah, it was dopeeee. people were so faded.. geez. uhh i dont really wanna get into details =X.. ahah okay so ne ways. i took the bus home while everyone went to nobhills to eat cause i was too tired and i wanted to go home and take a hot shower.

thursday, me and tram went to greatmall to buy shirleys and melissas gift. and.. i got myself a skirt, hehe.

friday, melissas and shirleys party. everyone got dressed up, aww.. everyone looked so nice. we ate at chef mings, and hmmm. afterwards we decided to watch a movie at greatmall. but once we got there, it was too late, and all the movie times were out. so we just chilled outside.. FREEZING, and jennys brother drove me home

saturday, went to eilenes house, and went to some party. it was boringgg.... went back to eilenes house and watched gothika and big fish.

and last night i couldnt sleep.. gothika scared the shit out of me. i kept waking up in the middle of the night.. and i kept seeing people.... but then i think i was way too tired to be scared, so i just kept falling back to sleep.

sunday, so here i am, home, gonna stay home today, cause i got nowhere to go.. ahah and im tired. i think imma go swimming tomorrow. yay.

so hmm, i think after this week my summers gonna suck balls, its always fun for the first week and then after.. gets boring as fuck

4:55.pm

im boreded.

on my brotheres lap top, cause cause johnnys using my comp to play gunbound. speaking of gunbound, i dont play ne more.. hmm, its getting boring, and i shud play.. cause my friends are getting mad at me for not playing. hehehe, sorry guys, ill play next u ask..foreals. =)

sooooooooo

im scared. i got scared when i took a shower earlier.. i kept looking behind me. and in front of me. and AHHHH. outside the window next to me. and when i walk around the house, i always think theres some girl walking behind me, or watching me. OMG, im gonna cry

gothika has scarred me for life. ='(

i cant sleep...

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=(

A yellow rose inside me
Is dying as I speak.
Now I sit here empty,
So futile & so bleak.
Now my rose no longer blooms,
The stem is hanging low.
I wonder why my yellow rose,
Would walk out on me so.
I am an empty vase now,
Just clear glass on a stool.
To think that u would stay here,
I must have been a fool.
The petals fall so slowly,
Just drifting to the floor.
My yellow rose is sleeping,
Or maybe something more.
My flower isnt dead yet,
And not all hope is lost.
I refuse to let it go,
No matter what the cost.
I feel weak and helpless,
All that's possible's been done.
My flowers life has been drained,
It goes down with the sun.
My yellow rose has died now,
So lifeless, here it lays.
No longer may I help it.
My yellow rose decays.
I miss my yellow flower,
The seconds slowly pass.
Then I fall & hit the ground,
Now I am broken glass.
I'll die if I dont see you,
I long to see ur face.
My love, you are my yellow rose;
So, fill my empty vase.

- anonymous

12:39am

wowers im tired.

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL ! so sad...

allison came afterschool.. first time i saw her in 6 months.. i started to tear !! ahaha. and then tram was saying goodbye to me..and then she started to cry..which made me start to cry.geez, sniff.

i was wearing eilenes helmet afterschool  and everyone hit me over 3487385747 times on the head.. geez, you guys are gonna make me retarted. just cause i had a helmet on..doesnt mean it dont hurt!!! ahahaa.

"surprised" bonnie and shirley with a goodbye party at cardoza park today.. ahaha it was fun. kent, ur a perverted dork. ahaha

NO MORE HOT GUYS FOR 3 MONTHS?? NOO.

alright then, enough of the mushy stuff. joe's bbq later, yay.

nite.

12:44am

dudeee.

last day of school, didnt think i was gonna be this sad.

i cant believe this schools years over already...so fast. this year by far has been the hardest year for me, emotional wise, school wise, and relationship wise.  ive met sooo many new people this year, and ive gotten so much closer to so many people, and ive also drifted apart from so many.  ive learned alot from you guys, and for any wrong decisions i did this year... no need to regret, all i can do is learn from them, and thats why i thank everyone, whether you were there for me or not. ive learned from your mistakes, and ive learned from my own.

ive grown so much this year.

im gonna miss everyone over the summer....man, i fucking hate school.. its crap, but im gonna miss the school days.. sniff. it was fun.

AHH, and to all the people who are moving and transfering schools..tram, thuy, shirley, nim, bryant, and tiffany. you guys are all jerks for leaving me ! so mean! but ill miss you guys anyways. ahaha, ull always be apart of me.

goodluck to all the seniors, i wish you guys the best in life. ill miss you robbie and bc!! bc.. u better come visit me, and this time..freal ! ahaha

ill miss everyone!!! especially the hot guys, heh.

YAY!!!!!!!! SUMMER !!!!!!